one year ago today
it's weird to think what i was doing a year ago today (i mean specifically, today, november 1st, as opposed to 'in general')... i had been having recurring, searing pain in my lower right side for weeks, and i had finally been ordered by a kindly friend to see a doctor. after examining me, uhs put me directly into a taxi and sent me over to the hospital, wherein they pulled me in through emergency intake. hoping i wouldn't need my appendix out or some other kind of horrible procedure, i lay in a hospital bed damn near all day, getting poked, prodded, tested & examined by doctor after doctor after doctor. x-rays, cat-scans, blood tests, the works. i am not so good with that of the hospital, and i had a couple anxiety attacks, and they never did find out what was wrong with me; torn fascia tissue was as close as they could determine; rest and obnoxious amounts of motrin were prescribed. but i had people i was close to checking in on me, doing what they could to help me make it through the day, and the days before and after. looking at how isolated i feel much of the time now, i can't imagine going through it here. that day, that time seems so, so far away now...
on the one hand, i'm sad when i think about it. on the other hand, it gives me a little something to hold on to, that maybe things could be all kinds of good a mere year from now. i don't know how i got from then to now, though, so i'm not entirely sure how i get from here to there.
off to forage now. maybe things will look better on the other side of a nice bowl of soup.
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beccacat) wrote,
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